The Rest of Your Story 10: How are you really?

 

To start from part one, click here.

I'm sitting at my desk with tears in my eyes this afternoon. The reason? Someone asked me a question...

How are you really?

I answered, and cried in the hall, and totally surprised myself because I thought I was just fine. 

(And all my real life friends and family who read this, please don't fuss at me for not telling you I wasn't fine because I didn't know and now I'm better and we'll talk about it in person next time I see you, okay?)

Those tears were about a lot of things. For one, this "Rest of Your Story" series is getting to me, girls. I started it because I thought it would be fun and it turns out it's pretty tough too.

It makes me think about things I don't really want to right now and feel things I haven't felt in awhile.

A part of me wants to just avoid it all but I've put it out there for the whole world to see. Nothing like a little internet accountability! (:

Seriously, I need this series right now. I need to write this with you. I need to hold God's hand and take some steps with Him.

I don't know where we're going, really. Oh, I have some posts in mind but this journey has turned out to be different than what I expected.

But it's good. And I'm so glad to have you on it with me. God will get us where we need to go together.

Big sigh of relief. Smile returning to my face now.

So, today I want all of us to just take a deep breath and pause for a moment. Then I'd like to hear from you...

How are you really?

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p.s. I'll be on Kitchen Chat with Margaret McSweeney Friday morning from 11-12 CST. We'd love for you to join us! You can listen online (and get my famous Éclair Cake recipe) by going to http://toginet.com/shows/kitchenchat!

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[Fiona]

Hugs to you!!

You know that is the one question that I have not been asked by any new friends here at all...I don't have anyone in my life here who wants to know how I am really, really......and that gets me down if I let it.Go and buy the person who asked you that a coffee from me, and cherish her! Life is made for companionship....we're not to do it alone....

[Ally]

It's funny. I have been so internally knotted lately, and today I realized which monster I had let back in. I had to face a lot of emotions. I had to confess some weakness and insecurity. I had to figure out me, again. It's amazing how no matter how much we "figure out" there are always more layers. Always more that God wants to undo.

I am glad you share your journey. It gives me the reassurance that we all go through these phases and that somehow, we end up digging through the same battles but arriving in altogether new places each time.

[Tammy@If Meadows Speak...]

Funny you ask? Pooped-in-a-hand-basket, like tired, worn out, pooped. I just blabbed it on my blog, but hey, I'm better now too!

Oh and Holley, you take one hand in God's and we'll (bloggy friends) hold your other hand. We don't need you to spill all your beans, 'cause God knows them already. You got His hand, we have your other and it's enough. Let's do it together, 'kay? ;-)

[Tammy@If Meadows Speak...]

FIONA! How are you really? I mean R.E.A.L.L.Y. There's ONE person who wants to know, me and everyone else here on blessed Holley's bloggy place. You've found a friend or two, or three, or four...... :) Thanks Holley for allowing us to share and lift one another up.

[Katy]

Love when I get to ask that question and to have it asked...it's a doozy, though! I'm with you on this series starting out fun and turning into some "tough" truths. Definitely glad I get to face them with Him holding my hand!

[Corinne]

I'm emotionally drained today. Dealing with things I had pushed back for a while, and am just exhausted. You know that feeling you get when you've thought about things way too much, and haven't had a chance to cry because you've been so busy with other things? That's where I'm at...

[Fiona]

Tammy - :-)

[Paula Jean]

Hugs to you, Holley! Less than 2 weeks ago, I had almost the same thing happen to me. I was talking to a woman who is both a friend and mentor. We were talking about my God sized dream post... and out of no where, I was crying.

Your posting idea had me thinking and I stirred up all kinds of feelings -- stirred them up more than I even realized.

Since then, I have been reading and thinking and writing as I walk this path of individual adventure you're leading us down. It seems deeply personal for each of us, yet the shared support is certainly there too as so many share their thoughts & dreams.

I've been trying to find words for you the last several days to let you know that this series is helping me find some traction that I didn't even know I needed. I only knew something wasn't quite sitting as it should be and your questions have helped lead me to more solid emotional standing.

Now, today, I'm feeling centered and calm. It's like my emotions are settling down. If I was a pot of spaghetti sauce, I think I'd be in the simmer mode. I've done my prep work, sauted the meat & veggies, added in the tomatoes and herbs... I'm simmering & reducing to the essence of the ingredients. Time will tell what tweaks need to happen next...

Thanks for sharing this series with us. It is something special!

[Holley Gerth]

Oh, girls, I'm so glad that you're talking to me AND to each other. That just does my heart good tonight. (: Love to all of you!!

[Cynthia]

I'll have a piece of chocolate to help you feel better:-)Love you girl!